Saturday, July 23, 2011

Late Night Shivers

I can hear the ticking of water dripping around 3am last night...i was alone..all my dorm mates neighbour area some busy playing computer games and some sleep soundless like a baby... the sound of the broken ceiling fan the room in front of my room are dominating the corridor and echoed till the end.. i was in between..

i went to the toilet to wash my feet before going to sleep.. and then i heard a very tiny and slow "tok.. tok.. tok" far end.. my eyes was rolling to the right..i dont dare to rotate my head 90 degree.. then i tried to see from the reflection of the mirror to see.. there was nothing there.. im sure there is no one inside.. only me and some micro creatures..
then i walk towards the closed-door toilet... so called to investigate.. i try to push the door but it was locked.. locked tightly.. then.. again.. "tok.. tok.. tok" fused together with the sound of dripping of the water from the toilet tank..

i was scared in the same time was sleepy.. but i didnt ran.. i walk out the toilet like i used to be.. maybe it was only my feeling.. but im sure what i heard.. what lies behind the closed-door is remain unknown...

Where is the Love

Hi u.. how are u? Can u listen to the beat of my heart and the restlessness when i see u..? i dont know if u know or pretend of not knowing.. i dont dare to talk and express my feeling towards u.. i know i may lose u one day, but plz make me happy.. i know u can see from my eyes and the way i treat u.. i dont want to make u uncomfortable and thats y i am not trying hard to search or in contact with u.. giving u space..

and now, i realize that i dont really know what love is... because i think it is wrong to love and it is wrong not to love..


Friday, December 3, 2010

Under Maintenance

Ill be back soon... I don't have time actually to sit and write something thoughtful and meaningful post.. After my practical at Taiping, Perak, hopefully I can dedicate 1 day to write about my life and experience after my previous post... My next post I wish it will be essential to our life, something that we can think of and something that we can ponder and learn from it...

To new blogger friends Gibot, Hidayah and Gaman... Have fun reading and I'll be reading yours as well...

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Exams! Goodluck!

Like always... end of the semester, its exam time..
Im lucky im not that stress out yet... im facing it with full confidence and GOD in my heart... I know that HE will help me through out this period of time..I want to thank HIM for it...

  Studying with smile on my face and i really had a good sleep during exam week.. hopefully it will be fine and have good result...

All the best everyone... and have a blast answering your paper... dont leave any space blank.. hehehehhehe *walaupun merepek...*
Just have your rifle ready and shoot at your target...

Friday, October 29, 2010

Is it okay?

Its okay to cry.. no! its not okay.. im sad and im weak
Its okay to miss! its not okay.. im lost without you
Its okay to say! its not okay ... im alone
Its okay to be! its not okay.. its killing me inside
Its okay to be happy... no! its not okay.. i dont want it to end
Its okay to be apart.. no! its not okay.. i want you here close to me
Its okay not to call.. no! its not okay.. i want to hear your voice
Its okay not to! its not okay.. i want to see your face and eyes
Its okay not to say ' I LOVE YOU'.. no! its not okay.. i want you to know how i feel

My life is empty without you.. Because you are the reason I wake up in the morning.  You're alone and no one else.. 

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Under a Sakura Tree

A cherry blossom is the name for the flower of cherry trees known as Sakura. They will go to parks, shrines and temples with family and friends and hold a "flower viewing party" known as HANAMI. Hanami festivals celebrate the beauty of Sakura, and for many, it is a chance to relax and enjoy the beautiful view.

Cherry blossom is an omen of good fortune and is also an emblem of love, affection and represents spring. Cherry blossoms are an enduring metaphor for the fleeting nature of life, and as such are frequently depicted in art.Cherry blossoms are richly symbolic, and have been utilized often in Japanese art, manga, anime, and film, as well as at musical performances for ambient effect.the extreme beauty and quick death, has often been associated with mortality.

In its colonial enterprises, imperial Japan often planted cherry trees as a means of "claiming occupied territory as Japanese space".During World War II, the cherry blossom was used to motivate the Japanese people, to stoke nationalism and militarism among the populace.

Japan gave 3,000 sakura as a gift to the United States in 1912 to celebrate the nations' then-growing friendship. The sakura trees continue to be a popular tourist attraction (and the subject of the annual National Cherry Blossom Festival) when they reach full bloom in early spring.

Cherry blossoms and leaves are edible and both are used as food ingredients in Japan. The blossoms are pickled in salt and umezu and used for coaxing out flavor in wagashi or anpan. Salt-pickled blossoms in hot water is called sakurayu and drunk at festive events like weddings in place of green tea. Leaves, mostly Oshima cherry because of the softness, are also pickled in salted water and used for sakuramochi. Since the leaves contain coumarin, however, it is not recommend to eat them in great quantity.

There are many legends about the cherry tree in Japan, for example the Old Man and the Cherry Tree and the tale of the Cherry Tree of the Milk Nurse O-Sode, furthermore blossoming cherry trees were not only a sign to begin the rice planting season but also linked to divination of the forthcoming harvest. With Shinto beliefs in the spirits or kami inhabiting and embracing all facets of the natural world it is unsurprising that the celebration of Hanami became so popular among the Japanese people.

Although not much I can say about Sakura Flowers, the beauty itself speaks louder...

Top of all,I wish I can be under a Sakura tree when all the flowers falls on me.... *Speechless*

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Its Official- Giving Away My Organ

It is  official that i am an organ donor on the 20.10.2010... I went to Hospital Sg.Buloh together with my friends and fill up a form to be an organ donor .

Organ donation is the removal of the tissues of the human body from a person who has recently died, or from a living donor, for the purpose of transplanting. Organs and tissues are removed in a surgical procedure. At the time of death the organ, tissue, or eye recovery agency will make a determination, based on the person's medical and social history of which organs/tissues are suitable for transplantation.

Organ donation typically takes place after brain death, the irreversible loss of all brain functions, including the brain stem. Tissue donation can take place after brain death or cardiac death (the irreversible loss of cardiovascular function)~Wikipedia.

At 1st i changed my mind to fill up the form. but then, i realize that if today is not the day, when it will be?

The main reason i wanted to be one because i want to give other people chance to live when i die. Giving them 2nd chance to live and be happy would be great feeling for me although im dead.
Right now, it is my own decision. i havent inform my family yet.but hopefully, they will support beacuse it is a noble action  i want to do before i die.

I wish i can see the person's face when given chance to live.I dont want to waste my organ to be buried 6 feet under. This is because im taking care of my organ perfectly now and it would be a waste if to be wasted like that.
In fact, i want my organ scattered all over the place. I wish my bone is somewhere at school lab for anatomy for education purposes, my Cornea is somewhere maybe in Korea,and my heart is somewhere special with unknown person and my lung somewhere with people who really wants another chance to breath.

Be one and make ur life more meaningful. By helping others, ur life will be blessed with unconditional love and prosperity...